I rarely share stories about my self but I feel with the current climate it needs to be shared .
When I realized I was gay it was the most fearful thing I was scared and petrified .I felt like I failed as a man . So I set out on mission to straighten myself out .
Every time I thought about guys I would self- harm that means depriving myself of sleep I would force myself to stay awake for days on end which effected my mental health i would stay up untill my body could not take it and would collapsed .
I started doing other stuff like consuming heterosexual porn I thought yeah maybe I need to see more of that the moment i saw a womans vagina I would swell up in disgust but I would force myself but it always ended up with me throwing up on the floor I'd force myself to look and nude woman again same result .
Fast Forward years later Im still finding men hot and I finally accepted myself for who I am and loving myself my body has scars from the shit I did both inside and out but I see them as not shameful things but as sign of the stuff I went through and realizing I'm still here and im still kicking ass .
When I see TRAS post shit like it "youre just a transphobe for not liking man coochie" or "just get over it "pisses me off they have no idea the shit that I went through they have no idea the emotional pain I suffered I only had one person to help me get through my shit and I'm forever thankful for his help .
So to all the TRAS they have a problem with me being only attracted to biological Men FUCk YOU !!! No one has authority over my body and no one owes you shit !!!
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So I endured years of brutal bullying for a genital fetish?
Clearly they don’t understand (or choose not to understand) that if I could be attracted to vaginas I would.
They sound like fucking religious Zealots "just try it " "get over it" "how you feel is wrong "
Well that’s exactly what they are, it’s all a giant cult. A homophobic ant science cult, hardly different from religious extremism.
Homophobic and for a good part misogynistic too.
Fuck 'em. They're just another voice of doubt in our minds. No better than the bible lovers.
We're here to stay, baby! 💕
Exactly I did not come this far only to be put back in the closet fuck that
In my country, Christians are actually pretty welcoming and accepting of gay people. They make up an important part of some of our biggest congregations. My issue there is not their attitude towards to LGBT at all, but rather, I find there's a lot of holes in many issues, not just LGBT.
Sorry excuse me for writing 'T'. It's become habit for me over the years, and I'm trying to drop it.
Yeah i don't tar All religous folk with the same brush not all of them are like that I've met a lot of accepting ones in my life
Exactly. Two sides of the same coin:
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Stay strong and hold your head high. You're great just the way you are!
Thanks 😊
The TRAs posting shit like that are essentially incels, hating on people, as if the world owes them sex. Cut these people out, wherever you can! Avoid their dank toxicity and keep your peace of mind.
Oh god, that sounds awful. I'm glad you're doing better!
I agree, this is what especially pisses me off. Many people fight an uphill battle to accept their sexuality, may it be homophobic friends/family, poor self esteem, religion, etc. It enrages me to see people like you who finally feel comfortable with themselves get told they're transphobic by some Twitter hobbits.
Hold your ground. You don't owe anything to anyone (unless you have to pay someone back in which case you do).
Thank you 😀 and you're right about that last part 😂
I can relate alot to what you have said here. I used to self-harm and developed a severe addiction meth to deal with my years of trauma from growing up gay in a very conservative Christian home.
I still deal with substance abuse issues but I havent self-harmed or touched meth in over 7 years. Being gay is anything but easy but if we can weather the storm we only end up stronger as adults because of tidal waves of shit we have had to deal with.
Never EVER let anybody, especially the TQ+ crowd shame you or make you feel less than worthy for your sexuality. Yes I said sexuality, not "genital preference" because our sexuality is innately a part of who we are and there is NO reason you should ever feel bad about it.
Just know that you are not alone here and no matter how batshit fucking crazy the mainstream LGBT community may seem at times, they do not have the right to define who we are as homosexual men and women.
Thank you for your kind words and I wish you well on your journey as well.
Throwing up at the sight of someone naked (even if it's not the sex you're attracted to) isn't normal. I'm not attracted to women either but I don't puke at the sight of them. I'm just indifferent.
Seems like you have bigger issues there. I don't mean any offense.
Nah youre good when I shared my story with my straight friend he asked the same thing I told them I'm probably just an outlier, nowadays I don't throw up just feel alot of inward disgust in my youth is was worst honestly I couldn't tell you why my body responds the way it does.
Well, I'm not one to judge. I'm pretty sickened by men, not to the point of vomiting but certainly to disgust. I'm uninterested in women, but physically disgusted by men. No idea what causes it but whatever it is it's not healthy
FOr real, I remember forcing myself to sleep with men in the hopes that one day the magic penis would come along and suddenly fix everything I knew was 'wrong' with me. It was awful, and it finally reached I climax when I vomited all over a date for jizzing on me - I was that disgusted.
So the idea that somehow I wouldn't have the same revulsion for anyone with a penis is just laughable, no matter how they identiy.
That must have been a real awful experience sorry you went through that
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This is why i support the LG not the T
LGB*
Well said my friend! These people don’t seem to understand that being with someone of the opposite gender is literally sickening
I can’t post but just wondering why y’all don’t want trans part of lgbtq+
go to the post "Why do you want to Drop the T" for detailed answers.
Also, scroll a bit here in this sub to understand even better what's happening and the harrassment we're geting from TRAs
What are tra’s?
Trans Rights Activists
They are so desperate for a crumb of dick. They’re honestly this community’s version of incels. Don’t give in.
I relate to this so, so much. I had mountains of shame for being gay and not being attracted to women. I, too tried to turn myself straight by consuming straight porn. I even got mildly intimate with a girl in high school and it immediately felt wrong. I felt horrible, but I knew that being gay wasn’t going to simply go away. So like you, I had to start building myself back up piece by piece. TRAs saying we need to change our preferences skips right over all of the trauma we’ve endured and how long of a journey it is to self-acceptance. It’s pure and utter bullshit. I’m glad you’re in a better place.
Thanks I hope youre doing better as well
I feel the same way. as a lesbian, it's shoved down my throat (an accidental but all too true pun) that I need to love dick and that some women have dicks and all this bullshit. without getting too personal, I was assaulted when I was very young, and seeing male genitals brings me back to that moment (obviously not the only reason I'm a lesbian before gender cynical decides to call me a fake lesbian or some shit). I tried for so long to force myself to be straight, but I'm not. and now that I've finally accepted it I'm blasted every day by people telling me that my "genital preference" (i.e. sexuality) is transphobic. it's simply not. it's partly me being a fucking lesbian, and partly me dealing with trauma. it's called sexuality for a reason.
happy to hear that you're doing better in your journey. hope you find peace soon (if you haven't already).
I'm doing better and I'm at peace with myself i honestly have my friend to thank he's been with me every step of the way ... Theres something's i still got to get over but I'm smiling a lot more now :)
You vomit when you look at a woman or women's genitals?
Genitals
I really can’t imagine the pain you went through. I never had to deal with that as I’m straight myself. But I can relate to being told you’re a transphobe if you don’t date trans people. Just know that you’re not alone. You’re exactly as you should be and you are a person deserving of love, no matter what those assholes say.
Thank you 🥰
Sure thing