Hi again, don't know what to put in the title really.

Submitted Nov. 11, 2019, 5:29 a.m. by stupidstories

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I'm making this post because I sorta want some closure on all of this. And move on with my life but at the same time not let people use me for their own political agenda by spreading lies.

Not sure if people here are aware that my post on here was spread all over the alt right parts of the internet, some accounts with 1m+ followers on twitter even made tweets about it. When I said neo nazis in a earlier post I did not mean this sub.

I will maybe delete this post after some time just like I did to my last, but thats only because I don't want my reddit account to be nsfw. But maybe I will let this stay forever and just stop log in to this account instead because of the constant harassment I get.

What people on this sub have said to me and written about me has actually changed my perspective on a few things. And I want to thank you for that. The trans community as a whole is really toxic and I barely had any contact with it before and even less so now. Not all trans people are bad, as individuals they can be just as amazing or shitty as any other human. But as a group the victim mentality that is encouraged is really toxic. Dating is hard for almost everyone. But within the trans community you are sorta expected to believe that it is especially hard for us. They have a very incel like way of seeing things. And I love contrapoints video about incels for bringing it up, and I think she really hit the nail on the head in that video. That incel mentality had really corrupted my world view.

I was so scared of not being lovable, because I was trans. That fear in it self made me in a way unlovable because I focused so much on beauty, passing and simply being trans. It took up so much of my mental energy and time. And thats really unhealthy. I wasn't even spending time on doing stuff that I enjoy doing and becoming a very boring and shallow person in the process. And some how even forgot that people already love me. I have several close friends that already love me. Sure that's a very different kind of love but still love and proof of me not being unlovable.

When I made those earlier posts I was not in a very good mental state and was having a real crisis and mental breakdown. And it didn't exactly get better when my inbox was bombarded with hate and people telling me I should just kill myself. Which is why I sorta just stopped using the internet and just went dark.

My surgical site has healed really well, the smell that I complained about is gone. And I'm actually really enjoying life as post op. Before the surgery as disgusting as this may sound I was not able to wash my penis. And had constant yeast infections on my glans. Being intimate with guys was really complicated because the genital region was simply just a no go zone and if they on accident touched that region the sex was just over. Going to the bathroom was a pain and tucking sucked. I hated everything about my penis and I'm really happy that its gone. Even if it was just a mental illness I really do feel better now and the surgery has really helped me. And now that its no longer a pus filled wound I'm no longer disgusted by myself.

I know this sub is not ment for posting positive things about SRS results. But this is my own personal experience, to me it doesn't matter if my genitals look cis or not. I'm just happy to be free from my penis. Also dilating isn't that bad, it doesn't hurt, you can do it while watching a movie or tv show. And after the first year or so you only need to dilate once a week and that can be replaced by having sex. Which isn't that bad imo, at least it is better than what I had before.

If you managed to get this far I want to thank you for reading all the way through and not just commenting after the first paragraph. Have a lovely day.

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redirtskrid · Nov. 11, 2019, 6:06 a.m. · 1 reply

If you’re in a more comfortable place right now I am so happy for you. I’m genuinely glad some of your issues are resolving and that you’re no longer in pain. I wish you nothing but the best going forward. ❤️

stupidstories · Nov. 11, 2019, 6:41 a.m.

You too kind stranger! <3

UltramemesX · Nov. 11, 2019, 6:06 a.m.

Thank you for the post. I know your situation certainly isn't simple, that being said I wish you could've gotten more help earlier. You seem like a decent person, and it's probably not very fun to have been the center of the attention like you've been, although it serves as an example of why situations like yours need to be dealt with early as possible rather than having enablers around. Best of luck to you forward at least.

super-vain · Nov. 11, 2019, 6:09 a.m. · 1 reply

I’m curious why you felt the need to include a picture, especially one that’s so blurry we literally can’t see anything. What is with the porn angle? If you wanted to show your post op results, take an accurate close up photo with good lighting, legs spread.

stupidstories · Nov. 11, 2019, 6:32 a.m. · 1 reply

Did it not occur to you I didn't want to take professional photos that will just be spread around the internet? Also people wanted proof of it healing nicely. How do you take pictures of genitals that isn't a porn angle?

super-vain · Nov. 11, 2019, 7:16 a.m. · 2 replies

You don’t need professional photos, just one that isn’t so blurry and grainy and dark that the surgical result is not visible. Also, a shot from behind is just weird. This is not a porn sub. If you wanted to post a photo of how your results turned out, you should have posted one where they’re actually plainly visible. It’s pretty obvious you’ve tried to use angles, lack of lighting and a grainy photo to camouflage as much as possible. This sub is really not the place for that.

Nicest_of_Nazis · Nov. 11, 2019, 7:22 a.m. · 2 replies

Let the dude have closure, man.

super-vain · Nov. 11, 2019, 7:26 a.m. · 1 reply

He can have closure, but that doesn’t include posting misleading photos where his actual surgical result isn’t even visible to a sub devoted to the results of the particular procedure he had. his closure doesn’t need to include continually misrepresenting his result.

Nicest_of_Nazis · Nov. 11, 2019, 1:50 p.m. · 1 reply

Maybe it does. Maybe he needs to convince himself there's a happy ending. Maybe the integrity of the sub and ensuring all posts follow "the rules" is less important to him than feeling like he likes this new life he has to lead now.

I think you care too much about a fake community and their pretend chat room.

Continue reading
0nlyL0s3rsC3ns0r · Nov. 11, 2019, 9:35 a.m.

enabling and coddling will only cause more people to think that this sort of self-harm is ok

stupidstories · Nov. 11, 2019, 7:35 a.m. · 2 replies
super-vain · Nov. 11, 2019, 7:41 a.m.

So again, the first photo you linked does not show your surgical result at all. We do not want to see your dildo/dilation. The second photo seems to only be showing a sliver of the actual photo, most of it is missing. I’ve tried on both mobile and PC. However, I will say from the little that is visible, it’s definitely not a vagina nor does it look like one. Best wishes on your recovery.

le_ebin_trolecel · Nov. 11, 2019, 11:18 a.m.

cuts everything out of the second picture

Yeah i wonder why you did that lmfao. Cant get it to look good with angles and lighting so just black it out

Imperial_Officer · Nov. 11, 2019, 6:11 a.m. · 1 reply

Would you not agree that wanting a specific body part removed is not a sign of a mental disorder? People with foreign limb syndrome and alien hand syndrome can't just walk in to a doctor's office and get their choice of limbs removed because they don't feel like it belongs in their body? They get therapy and help for their syndrome. SRS is just enabling a mental disorder instead of treating it.

stupidstories · Nov. 11, 2019, 6:40 a.m. · 2 replies

I agree that it is some kind of mental disorder, but does that really change that I am no longer disgusted by my body? The content is still the same. After my tracheal shave it was also a huge relief and I'm still really really happy I got that surgery 2 years later. Even if its just enabling it does still improve my mental health while years of repression and therapy etc did not. Its actually really hard to get this treatment in Sweden. Or used to be when I got my diagnosis etc.

One difference between this and removing a limb is that I'm still able to work and be a productive member of society. But lets say you remove a leg you will be unable to do some kinds of work.

kabloona · Nov. 11, 2019, 8:57 p.m.

You seem to be the right candidate for this sort of intervention. Good luck for the future

plasticnaptime · Nov. 12, 2019, 7:47 a.m.

I saw an article written by a detransitioning.. woman? Man? Sorry I get confused. She was a woman who became a man and then didnt want to be one anymore. Anyway she said it was all too easy to get hormones. No one tried therapy first, doctors just heard transgender and went with it. She doesnt think she was ever really trans, just a tomboy lesbian but she felt the medical community pushed her in that direction. Detransitioning has been taking quite a toll on her.

I personally feel this is one of the biggest problems right now, especially when a young adult feels they are or might be trans. I feel other therapies and things should be tried first, and hormones and surgeries as a last resort. Like you just said therapy didnt work for you, and at the end of the day people just want to be happy in the skin they're in.

I just dont know what's going to happen in the future if people who have undergone SRS change their minds. Idk what the long term consequences will be. Because I feel this is a problem in the mind, I dont know that altering the body is going to truly fix the underlying issue. It's the same unwell mind just in an altered body.

Either way, I do hope you feel better about yourself and I'm glad to hear that you're in a better mental state than you were. And I wish you the best of luck with your long term journey.

detransdyke · Nov. 11, 2019, 6:34 a.m.

I’m really glad you’re doing better and feeling more normal, I hope you’re able to continue to find peace and comfort.

softservesof · Nov. 11, 2019, 6:40 a.m. · 2 replies

It looks like a tiny ballsack

stupidstories · Nov. 11, 2019, 6:42 a.m. · 2 replies

So? Does it really matter?

TwinkleTitsGalore · Nov. 11, 2019, 11:44 a.m.

Look, honey... You don't need to be here. I'm so, so sorry that you were talked into this. Truly, I am. I remember what I was like as a young person and it kills my heart to think of all the kids out there being talked into this mutilation.

That being said, this isn't the place for you. You aren't gonna find people who want to help you here. This sub is meant to be a shock value place so that other kids considering what you went through don't go through with it.

Might I suggest r/detrans? If not that, there are plenty of places obline who can help you come to terms with your natural body.

Logicalidiot · Nov. 11, 2019, 10:56 p.m.

It matters when people like you force themselves into women's spaces.

TsuchinoKaze · Nov. 11, 2019, 6:53 a.m. · 2 replies

Looks surprisingly cis from that angle to me. I'm jealous you dont have to worry about shaving.

super-vain · Nov. 11, 2019, 7:18 a.m.

There’s a reason he used that particular angle and lighting. We can barely see anything at all, let alone whether or not his result looks “cis.” He is still intentionally misrepresenting his results, which is totally fine but there was no reason for him to post the photo here of all places.

TwinkleTitsGalore · Nov. 11, 2019, 11:44 a.m. · 1 reply

Fuck the fuck right off you sick fuck

TsuchinoKaze · Nov. 11, 2019, 7:35 p.m.

You're the troll, if it's so sick why are you here sicko.

THE_FINAL_PAM_ · Nov. 11, 2019, 6:43 a.m.

I am very happy you are feeling this way at the moment. It seems though that just a week ago everything was horrible and bleak. If you aren't already recieving significant mental support and medication I hope you seek that out.

hollyboombah · Nov. 11, 2019, 7:24 a.m.

I still don't think SRS is the right course of action as I can't support mutilation of a healthy body, but I am truly glad you are feeling better. You deserve to feel proud that you've come out through the other side of a rough time, and know that you are someone deserving of love. I hope you continue your journey to recovery, mental and physical, away from the trans community as it is Hella toxic, but I do hope you continue to recover.

You aren't alone. You aren't unlovable. Remember that every day, please.

CharmedBat · Nov. 11, 2019, 8:34 a.m. · 1 reply

That picture is shitty and proves nothing and the other pictures you provided in comments are still showing nothing. Nothing to see here, just another man with a bad result like the rest. He's just pretending it went well so he feels like he did the right thing, poor guy.

Thiccpepe69 · Nov. 12, 2019, 6:04 a.m. · 1 reply

I agree with you. These people are very delusional and having to fake themselves into being happy with their results when it’s just a shit show down there. The pictures show no proof of a good result.

CharmedBat · Nov. 12, 2019, 6:35 a.m.

I think this is a huge factor in them trying to basically recruit people. If they convince other people it's the right thing, it makes them feel like they made the right choice for themselves.

Meatbicycle4you · Nov. 11, 2019, 8:50 a.m. · 2 replies

You have a nice booty.

Meatbicycle4you · Nov. 11, 2019, 9:17 a.m.

And I'm glad you're doing good.

fanofswords · Nov. 11, 2019, 8:40 p.m.

Reported.

Playcrackersthesky · Nov. 11, 2019, 8:54 a.m.

I don’t really know how to feel about this post.

Your post history recounts feeling like no man will ever want you for more than just “a cum dumpster for the night.” The misogyny is real. You asked if people thought suicide was your only option.

I am sorry for your pain, and I’m sorry the medical community has performed such a life altering and controversial surgery on someone such as yourself with such troubling thought processes.

FutureArea · Nov. 11, 2019, 9:43 a.m.

whatever floats your boat

Lesbian_Frylock · Nov. 11, 2019, 9:50 a.m.

Wrong sub, bub.

Nona_Biba · Nov. 11, 2019, 12:35 p.m.

What's done is done. I'm glad that you healed and are happy with the end result.

mastanmastan · Nov. 11, 2019, 2:54 p.m.

im glad you are doing better , id suggest stop posting photos and asking people for their opinions tho as it serves no purpose for you its just gonna make you feel bad

also if you watched contra point video you should know how the "posting photos of your self so people roast you" mentality is toxic

TyrannosaurusTERF · Nov. 11, 2019, 3:07 p.m.

I don’t think this is the place for this post, it probably would work better on another gc sub, as someone mentioned before this one is more for shock value “this is what SRS can do.” I’m glad you’re at peace, but don’t be foolish enough to expect anyone here to endorse you’re actions. I’m sorry you felt you had to go to such extreme measures to find peace, but not for a moment does that mean what doctors did to you was ethical. SRS should never happen, it should never be used as a last resort. It’s absolutely vile, doing that to a person. I have sympathy for certain cases, particularly yours. But if we let some people get SRS, how could we ever set criteria for who’s worthy of having their genitals altered, and make sure they won’t regret it? We have no way of knowing. I wish you a happy life.

ScottishCatMamma · Nov. 11, 2019, 3:39 p.m. · 1 reply

Iunno why you're all coddling and fawning over this dude when he's over on another sub calling you 'neonazis and terfs'. He seemed nice enough (compared to other blokes) in his first post, but his glaring misogyny is showing and now he's sending you dick pics 😅

super-vain · Nov. 11, 2019, 3:50 p.m. · 1 reply

The post and comments are a great example of male vs female socialization. Male with misogyny issues comes into female dominated community where he would typically not be welcome, seeking attention, and women fall all over themselves to give him praise and attention. It’s pathetic.

Doody69 · Nov. 11, 2019, 11:57 p.m. · 1 reply

Yeah, the long drawn out sobstory combined with a photo of him in a pornographic pose.... this guy is inflicting his fetish on us. But since he's supposedly "self aware", everyone here is now validating him. Ugh

terf_fret · Nov. 12, 2019, 3 a.m.

Bingo

Bluemeanie76 · Nov. 11, 2019, 4:29 p.m.

Hi, I'm happy that u feel better. Let's hope it stays that way.👍

Good luck!

terfdotcom · Nov. 11, 2019, 5:12 p.m.

If you're not in therapy already, I'd highly suggest you find a therapist today. From what I've seen, it seems to be common for people who have had SRS to have highs and lows in the months following the surgery. I'm happy for you that you're doing alright now, but I think you might want to prepare in case you go back to feeling hopeless & depressed again. Hopefully that won't be the case, what's done is done, but it never hurts to be cautious

QuebecMadonna · Nov. 11, 2019, 6:46 p.m.

I’m glad to see that you’re doing well. Take care.

parisoniac · Nov. 11, 2019, 7:43 p.m.

Did you ever consider that you were getting yeast infections because you were tucking your dick? Skin needs air or it starts to grow fungus. I've gotten yeast infections and I didn't get my vagina surgically scooped out and sewn up.

One_Gastric_Sleeve · Nov. 11, 2019, 8:25 p.m.

When did this become a place for folks to come back telling is SRS is a good thing? This doesn't belong here, go get the sympathy elsewhere, geez.

FutureArea · Nov. 11, 2019, 9:03 p.m. · 1 reply

you have stockholm syndrome, the people here are just shitting on you for their amusement because they are miserable themselves. my advice is to not go on reddit and figure things out for yourself

kylorenshirtless · Nov. 11, 2019, 10:02 p.m. · 1 reply

No, they’re the only ones being real with him.

TA1648878 · Nov. 12, 2019, 2:33 a.m.

This. Furthermore, the vast majority of the world will not interact with you like reddit trans hugboxes, where all your feelings are validated constantly and you're told how wonderful and pretty you are. It's such a destructive cult and probably one of the reasons the suicide rate is so high.

fanofswords · Nov. 11, 2019, 10:03 p.m.

Good for you I guess. I am somewhat ambivalent here. On one hand, it is nice to hear from a trans person about the community, OTOH I worry that neovagina disasters will then become a forum trying tp offer endless adulations to trans women. That exists on tumblr, it is uneeded here.

Going forward, I don't really support any further posts similiar to this.

Congrats on the surgery Op, hope you find your peace.

terf_fret · Nov. 12, 2019, 3:10 a.m.

I will never forget that you told actual women who needed lifesaving surgeries that your need for surgery was just as real. You compared women's deadly illnesses to your feelings. And now you're sending dick pics. You are toxic and misogynist to your core. Don't ever call yourself a woman.

Lucretia123 · Nov. 12, 2019, 4:36 a.m.

People were asking how this guy was doing, was it just yesterday?

So, he's come here and let us know. I don't think he should be shit on for giving an update, when people here were asking about him.

I'm glad your healed up OP, and feeling better. Eat more food. Your too skinny.

puppyCasino · Nov. 12, 2019, 2:09 p.m.

I wish you the very best. Regardless of all this, you're still a real person at the end of the day and it is important for you to have a community that cares about you. And I mean the core you. Not your looks, not your gender, not any of that. You've always been whole and you always will be. If people give you shit, cut them out of your lives. You don't need it. Seek good friends who will stick with you though thick and thin.

standingpretty · Nov. 12, 2019, 7:09 p.m.

I’m glad you’re doing ok, physically and mentally.

Love is hard to come by, but my advice? Stop looking, work on yourself, that is when they show up. There’s a lid for every pit kid.

Glad you’re focusing on the positive

L3VANTIN3 · Nov. 12, 2019, 7:54 p.m.

Sweet wound

i9am9recovering · Nov. 13, 2019, 10:19 a.m.

It's very telling that during the last thread, people here were saying how awful it is that the trans community disowns anyone who has experiences contrary to their beliefs, and now that you're feeling content with yourself, you're getting backlash here. Pro-trans and anti-trans groups are both dumpster fires, I hope you find peace outside of them.

megneto · Nov. 13, 2019, 1:37 p.m.

Oh, wow! Hey there! I can’t even begin to express how much I appreciate you coming here to make this post.

Thank you for letting us know how you are doing and I only can continue to offer my support and hope you will continue to thrive and learn to love what you have.

You’re so much more than our meat vessel we walk around in daily. You have an incredible amount of worth, and your story definitely deserves to be heard and go on!

I hope the hate starts to die down, if not, screw them! They’re only miserable anyway.

spiritplumber · Nov. 14, 2019, 4:10 a.m.

Yay for things working for you! Please take the time to tell people where you got the surgery, the best defense against quacks is a robust feedback loop.

chippysammy · Nov. 14, 2019, 1:20 p.m.

Post removed. Dude has a fetish and is inflicting it on us all. Let’s see how long he goes on about loving his decision once the novelty has worn off... until then we aren’t validating his fetish. Some of y’all are too quick to bend over backwards for these men who are ultimately getting off on subjecting us to their shit.